To say things around here are busy would be the biggest understatement of all time.....and to say that I have it all under control would be an even BIGGER understatement! In fact, that would be a flat out lie!
On top of trying to prepare for Christmas like the rest of you, we are also in the process of transitioning to a new home (which we don't even have yet!!) in a new state. We've been looking at houses online and Matthew even looked at a few of them in person last week while he was in Jackson working for a few days. Sadly, the one that we had our hearts set on was taken right out from under us just ONE day prior to Matthew looking at it. So, we had to start over at square one since none of the others he looked at met our needs. We've found another one that we both love but we still need to see it in person. So until then, we are still in limbo as to where we'll live. This means we can't have our mail forwarded yet, can't order new checks from our new bank (because our bank here in SC doesn't even exist in TN), and most importantly, we can't even tell the movers where to take our stuff! Aaaahhhh! Thankfully, next week while we're in Tallahassee, Matthew and I will be leaving Kyndall with my parents and the two of us will fly up to Jackson to look at the house and make a decision. By that point, it will be just ONE WEEK until Matthew starts work there, so I'm hoping, praying and crossing every finger and toe that this house will work out for us! Once it does, I feel like most of my stress will quickly fade away.
The past two weeks have been filled with so many errands and appointments that it almost made my head spin! Here's just a few that I can remember off hand.......Final orthodontist appointment, final GI doc appointment, final liver doc appointment, final vet appointment for both dogs along with getting their teeth cleaned, final speech appointment for Kyndall, final PT appointment for Kyndall, last dentist appointment, closing out our old bank account and opening another one, changing cell phone companies and getting new phones, LEARNING the new phones, Christmas parties, final play dates with our Moms group, sponsoring a family for Christmas, seeing as many friends as possible for lunches and dinners, providing my annual Christmas breakfast for Matthew's employees, house hunting, scheduling movers, sending Christmas cards, taking family photos for two of my friends, oil changes for both cars, OH and Christmas shopping/wrapping on top of all that! Whew!! I've been burning the candle at both ends, usually not getting to bed before 2:00 a.m. and getting up by 6:30 a.m. to start it all over again!
On top of all that I just listed, last Thursday I received some pretty devastating news regarding my health. It was definitely the most shocking and most difficult to accept news that I've ever received in my entire life. I was completely blindsided and not prepared emotionally for the news the doctor delivered that morning. I'm not ready to share it with the world just yet (and I may never be---who knows?) but just know that I would GREATLY appreciate your prayers as I face this obstacle. It will be a true test of my faith and my prayer is that I can walk through it with grace, humility and a sense of peace. As terrible as the timing seems, I honestly believe that it was God's way of sparing me from falling into a sad, pitiful, unnecessary state of depression over the news. I have been so busy that I really haven't had time to sit and wallow in my own sorrows or feel sorry for myself. And what good would that do anyway?? The world doesn't stop for my broken heart......life goes on. There are things to do and places to go and no time for me to crawl in bed and wither away into a ball of tears. Yes, I had my moment of grief and in the calm and quiet times, those feelings of sadness, helplessness, worry, pity, fear and even anger do creep back in. But again, what good will those feelings do for me? I plan to spend that energy in prayer and really seeking the Lord's will in this situation. Will you do the same, please? If I come to mind, will you just say a prayer for me? I would appreciate it more than you know.
Tomorrow will be Kyndall's very last day in Summerville, ever. Tonight will be the last time she sleeps in the only bedroom in the only house in the only town she's ever lived in. It will be her last "bubba baf" (bubble bath) in the same bathtub where she was first bathed as a newborn. Today was the last time she'll ever play with her friends at the Mothers Morning Out program at our church. This past Sunday was our last time as a family attending services at the church that we have grown to love so much. Matthew and I will return after Christmas, but Kyndall will not. She'll stay behind with Matthew's parents in Thomasville. The two of us will come back just for a few days in order for the packers and movers to do their job and then our time in Summerville will be over. With the final box packed, we will close another chapter in our lives and move on to our next adventure as a family. I never thought it would be so difficult for me. I just feel like I'm leaving a piece of my heart behind here in Summerville. It's where some of the most wonderful memories of my life were made and the only place our family has ever called home.
I could continue with the nostalgia but there are presents to wrap, laundry to do, suitcases to pack, a car to load and plenty more errands to run......all before tomorrow morning!!!
I'll be away from the blog for several weeks I'm sure, unless I am somehow able to find time amidst the continued chaos to post a quick Christmas update. But I shall return.......and when I do, I'll be blogging from the great state of Tennessee!
I hope that each of you have a blessed and wonderful Christmas and that you take time to truly be thankful for the gift of CHRIST!!
Goodbye, Summerville! Thanks for the memories!
